I’ve been  a singer/songwriter for 20 years. Recently someone asked me ” What would do if you won the lottery? ” My reply was ” I’d still write”. I am lucky to love what I do and to have been accepted by my family for the artist that I am.

I lost both my parents in recent times. My father in 2008 and my mother on July 1st of this year.  My father gave me my music and my mother gave me my honesty. Of course there are loads of other things I could list, these are just the first that come to mind.

My brother John  got married 2 yrs ago  and I remember his words to his beautiful wife: ” You made me become the man I always wanted to be.” I knew he meant Dad. I was overcome by anxious thoughts as I thought about what he said. I am single and have had years of dark days that have almost destroyed me. Years when I took a stick to my heart every morning and struggled to find ways to fill the emptiness. Could someone else be my answer too or do I need to find my truth and peace by myself?

2 yrs ago i was asked to cowrite with an American Composer Cathleen Flynn and my good buddy David Molloy. On the morn of the cowrite I had no idea what I would bring to the union. I got into my car and made the 60 mile drive to Forkhill and just started singing what would become the chorus to ” Be All You Can Be”

Oh Sleep as the lights goes out on the world outside
And walk on a golden beach to a morning tide
See all the little things
The dreams that set you free
Be all you can be for me. 

As a writer for 20 yrs I still don’t  know where songs come from. I’m different from most writers I know. I start without an instrument. I generally have a sense of some notion in my mind that bubbles to the surface when I not distracting myself with the duties of life. I’m just guessing, I guess. Maybe it’s an unresolved feeling I need to work out by saying it, singing it, playing it.

At the co-write session later the rest of the song came easy.  I thought about the selfless dying person who wants the living to truly live and to see their parting as a kind of release.

I loved and still love my parents so much I am so blessed to have had a wonderful love from both of them but I’m also aware that their joy was also found in the expression of this love. I am grateful for the beautiful lives they had and that they had a wonderful love for each other . They would want nothing more than for all their children to live full happy lives – This is their song and it is for anyone who had parents who gave their all to their children.  This is song is about those who have lost someone but more importantly it’s about finding yourself by letting go of that loss and becoming who you always wanted to be.

Here is our song:

I’m on my way
Heaven caught my eye
One last wish
In the last place that I lie

Time has come to leave you just for now
You’ll find peace somehow.

Don’t be afraid
I hear  its better where I go
We have to trust in all that we don’t know

Time has come to leave you just for now
You’ll find peace somehow

Oh Sleep as the lights goes out on the world outside
And walk on a golden beach to a morning tide
See all the little things
The dreams that set you free
Be all you can be for me.

You’ll be so sad.
I know for a time
But  soon you’ll smile
When you’re heart remembers mine
Time’s we had

Well they will always be
A gift in your life from me.

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paul bw della sess

Paul McDonnell is a singer songwriter based in Dublin, Ireland. He has teamed up with David Molloy to write award winning songs that have been recorded by multi platinum selling artists. You can find out more about him on his website: http://www.paulmcdonnellmusic.com